Parenting is NOT for the Weak

Parenting is not for the weak.

Parenting is a conglomeration of everything I never learned.

Parenting is a journey, not a sprint.

Parenting is easy...........said NO parent ever!

Sigh..
Tonight is one of those nights when I sit alone, in the living room, contemplating where I need to make adjustments. The whole time I am really balancing where my emotions are running array OR where this is the truth I seek.

Moments earlier I quoted the scripture Prov 22:6. "Train up a child in the way they should go and they will not depart from it" in order to justify my seemingly unfair choice to one particular child. As I said these words I am fully aware that my kids do not care WHY I am choosing the opposite of them. They don't understand the thought process of this hurts you as much as it hurts me. Quite frankly, I am SURE it hurts me more than them because the disagreeable words spoken on both ends lie etched within my heart. Every time I go through this moment, that sneaky voice rears its ugly head to remind me of the past.

BUT..but there is always a but. I am not alone. My thoughts are a choice just like my words and reactions. I can succumb to the negative ones OR..OR I can seek more than my thoughts. I can look to my Heavenly Father for my own comfort and reminders that this is only a stepping stone in OUR journey, my child and mine.

If there is one thing I have learned after being a mo, II am equally growing and maturing. Well, AND I will never, not ever have it all under control. I will continue to seek answers beyond myself, from the only answer there ever will be.

In the words of Annie, "tomorrow is only a day away."

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