irony

Here I sit watching the Biggest Loser on tv eating chips and cheese dip, drinking sweet tea with a chaser of 3 pieces of licorice. This would be the follow up to 2 slices of summer sausage on a cracker with equal pieces of cheese for dinner. Oh and before that I finished off the bag of circus peanuts I purchased just Sunday afternoon. I could go back farther but you can imagine that my day was hardly filled with excellent food choices. Ironic to say the least.

I often joke about my sugar addiction finding humor as a justification for allowing it to continue. The only reason I do not weigh equal to my bad habit is I stay active enough and eat few other calories a day. I hold my kids to a greater standard of diet but even that has gotten a bit lax. What was once a treat has been more and more common place, snacks, soda and the like. It is time to go beyond awareness to reality. Time to make a change.
Now if you are thinking I am about to say my great plan you are going to be waiting for some time as I have not figured it out. I am kinda hoping the snow and below 20 degree temps would let up so I could brave the outdoors to run. Or someone else would take my hand and walk me through the steps needed to change for the better. Either way I cannot knowingly imagine that my kids will say when they are grown that I was a great mom, creative and involved but well food was where I lacked. I have to try, for them and for me. How will I live out all my days if I don't eat what this earthly body needs, how will I walk in the health and healing I have faith for without doing all I can with what I have been given.
In 2005 Jan to be exact I was focused and determined. I exercised 3-4 times a week without fail for a year. I did nurtisystem for 1 month and then modeled my eating around the same style for the remainder of time. I of course was working full time so breakfast and lunch was solely planned around my preference. Here is a picture of my after babies bigger than ever before:

I know it could be worse, but well everyone has a breaking point and that was mine. Why can't I obsess in exercise rather than sugar? Ah ha! Light bulb on, I will exercise/stretch etc when I crave sugar. Maybe if I force myself to fill the emotional/physical need for sugar the habit will turn for the better. We shall see I guess. Now that I told you about it I will feel accountable. I hardly think any of you is coming to my home randomly to verify my actions but in the off chance you could I will feel required to change. I need a starting point, tomorrow will not work. I need a clear set time frame. Calendar here I come in the morning and I will get back to this soon. Feel free to ask anytime though it never hurts to have the thought of someone following up. Hopefully, in all of this it will be a witness to my husband who really needs some inspiration too. Onward...