Transition time and subtle

My little daughter is in the window of time when they are sweet and innocent. You want to give them everything just to see the joy wash over their entire body. They make the world seem like the best place to be in the smallest of moments. I am trying my best to hold onto every single second because she is it and I will grieve the loss when it is gone. I also find that knowing this means I am driven to make her dreams come true, including partially considering getting a dog for her. Thankfully my hubby is pretty determined to not get a dog because well they are like having another child. Yet, I know in my heart she would live with that dog even want it to sleep in her bed. I imagine the sad day when she is transitioning to leave our house and the dog declines in health too. But I picture the middle with me watching out the window or off the deck at her being just like me, teaching it to do tricks or whatever else she may think of  (probably stunting with her for cheer or something).

Why does is it feel like life is one change after another? I know kids growing up is a good thing. It has been a blessing to have the freedom to plan a trip without kids each year, to have time to run freely even if hubby is on duty and more. But still this also means that I can't hold tight to my circle of comfort outside the home. Activities change and grow with parents starting and ending. I desire to make a difference in everything I do. I don't know how to just be a number, I wish I could figure it out. I tend to find a way to be useful if at all possible. I like to establish a connection and be involved. There is favor in doing that and great reward. But well 2012 seems the year that I have to sit back and still make a difference but more subtly (at least the second half). I am not so good at subtle. Listen more than you talk is a difficult mantra but I will overcome, even if it kills me. :)
This summer has started well with many projects moving along and hopefully more to come. I have completed 2 pinterest ideas and 2 more being worked on. Here's to me adapting and growing just like God had planned too.