Real...really real

Since I am writing this blog, won't you go on a journey with me?
Dreams...plans...desires...hopes...wants...needs... what word do you give to the mind's ramblings? What do I want? What do I really want? If I could identify just that, it wouldn't be so frustrating when my emotions try to drive the train. In the book 'Unglued' the author says, "I can face things that are out of my control and not act out of control...Soul integrity is godly honesty. I can be honest with my feelings but exaggerate or misinterpret what is factually true. We need godly honesty, the kind reined in by the Holy Spirit."
"Life is not about the number of breaths you take, but the moments you take in." Hitch
Yep, I quoted some interesting sources right there. Welcome to my brain. I make connections with EVERY...SINGLE...THING. Not many people think like me, at least the ones I encounter. Nope, they believe in shades of my multi-rainbow-like color wheel. My husband isn't on the same planet, time zone, or solar system. How we are together is one of my greatest mysteries. O.K. I know how we ended up together. He brings things to the relationship I absolutely need but only sometimes want to need.
So, switching back to my original words..dreams...plans...desires...hopes...wants...needs. I _____. You fill in the blank from the previously listed word as it fits.
I _______ to learn another language. I ______ to travel the world. I _________to share the analytical, raw, emotional, descriptive interpretations with SOMEONE who actually cares to be a part of the discussion and doesn't need 24/48/72 hours to have a 2-word answer. I ________ my kids to know just how to be attentive to the ones they love and unafraid to discuss the hard things. I _______ to play a musical instrument such as piano or guitar. I ______ to know what my husband carries in his mind about the future. But then again, he needs to fully understand himself. I...I...I... I want God to lead me in his purpose for me, using all these gifts he has given that feel wasted or without sense.
What do YOU dream, plan, hope, desire, want, or need JUST for?


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