My Yes, his NO!
It made me reflect in just the opposite way. You see there have been SO MANY TIMES I was stubbornly set upon doing or having something beyond rationale or prayer. I set out to be married in 1998 so badly that hubby and I jumped into a boat neither of us were emotionally prepared for just yet. Then I was determined to move forward in the steps of future that we tried getting pregnant for 9 long months while I worked on finishing my Bachelors degree. God knew I needed to do one thing at a time but solely focused on achieving an end goal NOW I trucked on having no concern for his will for my life.
Well, then there was the pregnancy fairly easy but ending in an early delivery, unwanted c-section and surprise unexplained imperfections (extra finger, dislocated hips). Still unshaken I moved on in a naive level of parenting certain of my future. It was this blindness that led me through 5 surgeries in his first 4 years, then 2 more to follow. I pushed somewhat seeking God as I miscarried many times in the midst. A second pregnancy led me to be fervent with my seeking him and this baby was born more than healthy proving the odds of "nature" and doctors beliefs in my human female organs lacking was nothing in his hands. #3 was the same unplanned but pursued in God's hands. Meanwhile hubby and I purchased a house and our marriage hit somewhat of a rock bottom by this lack of devotion to the Father above and his plan.
Today though, today I lie here fully aware of all my insistent Yes and reflect that which he made good. I mean without his steadfast mercy and grace I wouldn't be married, strong and fully devoted to the man I promised my life too. Without God my oldest son would not be overcoming the odds of his chromosomal abnormalities, my youngest son healed from his food allergies and my youngest daughter speaking in faith for her healing too. God is my rock and fortress and I now KNOW to seek his face before I decide what I MUST have and do. For though he will make my path right I would much rather take the straight path in his plan than the curvy backward plan of mine. Thank God he loves me enough to shake his head and my wasted time and Shepard me more.
Tonight we read about the fruits of the spirit in the BEST devotion book for elementary age kids ever!
( The one year Devotions for kids published by Tyndale kids). Galatians 5:18-25
In the think about it portion it asks what fruit of the spirit are you working on. Teachable moment put in my lap we all went around in a circle discussing who needed to work on what. #2 readily said kindness as she has had a diva attitude, #4 goodness as she is struggling being obedient and using positive words, #3 was a challenge he decided on patience though iffy on which one I feel for him. #1 readily named self control but he really is making huge strides already, Daddy asked what we all thought and I suggested peace. He worries often, more often than shared and peace in this time of looking for a second job is def it. Me, well the kids determined though I was sure too that patience is for me. Yep, patience with the kids, with hubby, my parents and well patience with God's yes or no.
How about you?
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