Checks and Balances spiritually speaking

SO, in case I haven't mentioned it lately I have sensed a sort of growing up or maturing nudge from the Lord lately. I make it a point to set God first at meals, before bed and during struggles. We are fairly consistent about reading the Bible as a family as well, returning to his word when dealing with the kids etc. But what I haven't done is gotten a system that lasted time constraints for myself. You know spending time in God's word daily, not weekly or randomly but daily.
One change I have made is I listen to Joy FM the majority of the time now as secular radio minus country really preaches things I am ashamed to sing or allow my kids to sing. I can no longer pretend that the mood it sets doesn't make a difference. If I listen to Christian radio and feel uplifted and motivated then sex, cheating and drinking does what for me? Now this from the person who as a child was banned from all secular music means that there is balance. I listen to it when I run because the beat sure does get a girl moving, a switch it up from time to time careful about which songs I chose. I listen to more Country these days because well there is real life in a better balance too.
Last year was to be a year of balance this year of restoration. Well to restore my finances to their best I must fully tithe ALL the time. I have been very close but again let things distract in the last month so that too our family is correcting. Then next on the agenda is rerouting my focus. I am a doer, a giver and crave to make a difference yet I am allowing myself to be spread thin enough I cannot do anything more the mediocre. But see that is just it, I can't. But I don't have to do it all myself. Ha, surprise there too huh, right?! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. He is my rock and my fortress, I need nothing more. I do not feel that I am doing things I shouldn't but rather I haven't accepted that I am not Supermom/woman whatever without him. He has given me the gifts I have, the purpose to fulfill I just have to lean on him and do it. Man, this is such a difficult thing for someone who is a can do girl. But tonight, I relent. I stand here and now and admit I cannot do it all. That is ok, that does not make me weak. Funny those are hard words to swallow and wear around my neck.
Yet in saying them I am empowered. In writing this, AFTER putting my children to bed then reading some scripture, reflecting in my journal and praying I am renewed in a way I cannot describe. Tomorrow I will get the book fair helpers started, head off to the PAT advisory board meeting trusting God will give me the right words to say when asked to speak and then complete the book fair successfully. I will then arrive home to whisk my baby girl away in some 3rd bday fun as it is her special day and revel in not the chores that don't need doing but life itself. I will bask in the whole family time upon arrival of hubby and the big 3. We will each head our own ways, dance/TKD/practice and come home to pray and read together before ending the day. Yes, folks I then will return to this same place where I will transition from mom to wife/woman by focusing on the reason why I am here, God. In that I will be capable of repeating each day ahead with this very same attitude, trusting that the next step/job/whatever is in his hands completely.
*contented sigh* I am so glad I followed the urging of his prompting tonight because no more than an hour ago I felt like collapsing in a ball of tears. I pray for each of you few readers, that you may fulfill your purpose here on this earth and that you too will enjoy the peace that comes only from above!